10.9.2002 [just after 12pm]

here's a field day for the freudians out there:

i had a weird dream. i dreamt that i was at some ultrafunky doctor's office/psychologist's office/bordello. it was bizaaaarre. like. the halls were all dark and plush, but i was really nervous. there were several people in front of me. i felt like i was in a game too, Baldur's Gate 2?! hahaha. and like. a friend had told me something about "look in a drawer that has WANKER written on it!" and the first time, i snuck in to look and there was a load of good stuff in it and more good stuff kept popping out. but then a WHOLE ton of monsters showed up and slew my party so i had to reload.

second time round it had turned into that weirdo bordello/hospital/psych office thing. and like! there were more than one exam/tryst room? but from the rumors, it sounded like they really grilled the hell out of you, dredged up your darkest secrets and maybe performed some awful tests before, erm, fucking your brains out. hahahaha. it was WEIRD. but i was really scared cuz the guys that came out were like, pale as ghosts. and then it was almost my turn and i was getting seriously creeped and the door opened and i got like, just a GLIMPSE of the woman inside.

she was stunning. it didn't make me the slightest bit less afraid, though; it kinda made it worse. she was dressed all in black, kind of primly with gloves and all, but then it'd kinda look like she was wearing nothing at all and just wrapping the black satin sheets from her bed around herself. her back was to me and her hair was like, red. not dark red, but normal celtic red, kinda slipping down her back in these sleek, tousled loops. i don't usually like redheads, but this worked. it was like the color of flame, literally, in that room, which was kinda dim and lit by little candles in the wall or something. and she kinda turned halfway around and her skin was so pale and fine. dude, she was quite a beauty.

and then i woke up!